PUBLIC/PRIVATE - CLOSE MY EYES

I have been overwhelmed by ideas so far but it is time to close my eyes and think. We spend much time in public. People see us but not see us really. They know us but don’t know us really. We understand we are not friends or families and we accept we all live in these surroundings. We don’t talk normally and we just pass by. We tend not to have special complexion, out-of-the-way costume, and most of us just want to be one of them. There are people around us in public but we feel our privacy is protected. We have the ability just to be conforming and look alike others. We tend not to show ourselves. We tend to show our real selves at home with family in intimate surroundings. Out of home, we put back our mask to full fill our public role and forget our intimate self. We play role in streets, theatre, market, restaurant, school, company, etc. If we stay at home too long, we might feel too singular, we might want to have some social public presence even just go out to see the surrounding worldliness. We can not live our lives entirely in public also; such life would be shallow. If we wonder in party too long, we might look forward to our secluded self world. However, at times we sometimes confuse ourselves by taking privacy identity to public and bringing public mask back to home. The line between private and public gets blurred. The mask sometimes can not be taken off when we are by ourselves or with our intimate families. The internet, television, products, surroundings all contribute to this and blur our public and private life further. We forget what we look like and we don’t know if our mask is our real look. We are public and private. We have many kinds of mask, each for different venue, location and surroundings decided by the infused ideology, culture conforming nature, overwhelming commercial world and our ever diminishing self. These masks sometimes can not be switched well and each mask blurs the difference of other masks and selves. We sometimes get lost in the world of masks. Our private lives are encroached by the invisible public private complications, and we do not see beyond ourselves.